One of the purposes, or rather means, of tasawwuf (Sufism) is to learn to train your nafs (base self). You must learn to avoid those things that Allah does not like and engage in those things that pleases Allah. This takes a lot of self control and, depending on the situation, tawakkul (reliance on Allah). It is the inner struggle. In this month of Ramadan, a month of mercy, forgiveness, and worship, this is especially accentuated.
I had to make a sacrifice, hopefully only a temporary one. I can’t say how good it feels. As difficult as it may have been, I can already feel the baraka (spiritual blessing). At this point I can only pray that Allah blesses my intention and opens a door for something that does please Him. Despite the difficulty, I feel at ease and I pray that in a matter of time, the fruits of the sacrifice will bear fruit.
Oh Allah, bless us, have mercy on us, and forgive us in this month of Ramadan. You have opened the doors of paradise, locked away the devil, and showered your mercy on us. Allow us not to fall into a state of ingratitude, though we may be blind to Your countless blessings. Let us make the most benefit of this Ramadan and even though we be are so unworthy, rain your blessings on us even if we do not take advantage of this month. And finally, please let us live another year to see the next Ramadan. Ameen.